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8月26日 my wayfeel tired but,i had a great holiday that i spent a wonderful time with rex, mei & gao~
20 days` New oriantal life will never fade before i found the end of the world.
and what i have to do finally come up to me.
yet my way have not occur to me,just as what gao said,maybe it`s good to start by following.
cet 4 ,i`ve got 558~to myself,it`s only not bad for i could have made it better if i practised harder.'
cet 6,another gold
then GRe then Tofel....
time flies,but it`s still not too late to catch up with those who go earlier..
giants ,here i am~~ 7月9日 whats happening??what the fu*k<<signal&system>>!!
the exam shcaduel change again and again and finally come out
the result is ,it ruin my life!
what the fu*k GPA!
6月14日 happy birthday to my parentsaccidently,i knew about that my parents born in the same lunate date.
does it means they born in the same date??
i guess so.
so .today,i want to say thank you to my parents ,and hope that healthy always go with them.
and happy birthday.
half a century time have pass,at the age of my 21,yet,nothing i can do to pay the debt that i owe
while something that unexpectedly come around my family. maybe ,even a single change will ruin our
happy life that we own now. but i am the hope ,i believe my existence means our future still alive no matter what happen.i will surely bring fortune back to my family before it goes away from my sight.
best wishes to all parents around the world. 6月10日 rainingkeep raining these days.
bad weather means bad mood,and there comes some bad news.
long before ,i knew life expand is different to everyone,some live long while some die before they were given birth.
i dont know if iam lucky that no F die around me till now...though it may happen tomorrow.
i dont know what i can do , what i should do,either.
i ,now ,am a listener,listening to his feeling ,his thoughts,and maybe his last words want to say to me.
i dont know how to comfort ,so i just talk ,everything except future.
i have no idea what to say.....but i never say goodbay again after he told me about that.. 6月7日 高考两周年!回想高考,忘记得差吾多LU~~
经过备战高考嘅两年
我得到咗好多...
朋友,知己,自己,同某人...
高考成败,
人生一分水岭
呢一步或者我走得不尽人意
两年后嘅今日
UPDATE咗啦~~
进入备战状态.
GPA~B
烂学校,搞到我依家都未考4级,我同你死过~
6月5日 friends说当我在暗里憎恨一个人嘅时候,总会将自己嘅错摆到最后。
好多时候,都系我讲错野,然后得罪人。
而我,总希望得到别人的理解。
吾理解嘅人,决意要同我针锋相对,树立敌意。
于是,我开始恨一个人。
注定我要经历的事情,理所当然的发生,而理所当然地激发
骨头里,难以压抑的怨恨同仇视。
开端,
总由我挑起。
窝囊
练宵夜想吃咩都可以犹豫一大轮。
决定将字典中的郁闷同无奈撕去。
有什么我不能做到?
GPA~B
i can make it! 5月29日 dig myself out人在世上..其实,有好多个自己
父母心中嘅自己.
朋友心中嘅自己.
女友心中嘅自己...
敌人心中嘅自己.
陌生人心中嘅自己.
工作伙伴心中嘅自己..
自己心中嘅自己......
我
比我自己见到嘅系一个好钝嘅人...
而最近..
我发现夜深时分..我会变得好冷静...精神高度集中....心中有另一个自己在萌动..
现实中,我怕,怕新鲜事物,怕突发情景,怕踏出第一步,怕失败,怕负责任,怕说话.....
心中嘅自己..好厉害.虽然我知几多野佢知几多野,但系佢总系可以将事物联系埋一起,分析能力,应变能力,勇气,责任感,考虑事情嘅周全...毫无保留甘将佢可以做到嘅事情充斥我嘅思维...
佢,一心要做我嘅坐骑,我为王.
但系我吾甘心我只能够感受佢嘅气势...而吾可以将佢嘅气势归为我用...
所以~我宁可我最终成为坐骑..让我嘅优柔臣服于佢嘅勇猛之下...
或者最后..大家会觉得我更加陌生,至少...我觉得有必要...信心同勇气大爆发....
如果让身边嘅人感到困扰,我只能讲,对吾住,但系我一定要甘做. 5月21日 父亲今晚...级委搞咗个活动....."关爱父母,学会感恩"......
见住一个个女仔上去讲咗自己嘅经历之后泪两行甘冲出课室...
其实,当时感触并吾系太深,静系觉得身边有好多人惨过佢地............
而自己身在福中.....知福了...........
同埋思考点解超生总系出现系社会经济收入嘅上层同下层.......
翻到宿舍打开电脑开始漫无目的甘游晃于熟人陌生人嘅spaces & Qzones...
然后......一堆酸郁嘅感觉弥漫心头....
父亲系我嘅记忆中系一个我讨厌嘅角色....
冇文化.....从农村出来...当兵....转职......外经委...房地产......物业管理.....
依家年收入........十分可观.........全靠我妈子...旺父益子.....
超长气........分分中中UM寻过老妈子.........
典型嘅有钱就会坏嘅男人..........
软弱...
间中会好自大.....
间中会好天真.....
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所以,我其实一直都好少留意我老豆嘅举动.每次我留意到都系佢做坏事搞破坏嘅时候...
最紧呢半年我识林咗好多....开始觉悟生命其实脆弱的很........
开始懂得老妈子嘅长气..而老豆.仲系甘讨厌嘅一个人..
我成日俾我妈闹我同老豆一个衰样...冇责任感...冇主见....等等等~~~
今晚睇到一句:
父亲的老是一朝一夕渐渐变来的,而我却是在一瞬间发现的.
过年时,就已经发现老豆个样变咗好多..好多..好多..
果阵静系顾住玩.......冇在意..
5·1时翻屋企..终于可以组织到语言去形容呢种改变,老豆老咗好多好多....
个心.好酸...
以前好羡慕人地老豆..可以谈天说地,从历史地理到天文科技...可以严父得好令人信服..
可以系独立嘅力量来源....觉得老豆可以帮我做嘅野全部都系理所当然....
有,绝对有睇吾起我父亲.
好后悔..后悔讨厌过我父亲...后悔静系去留意父亲承受压力后嘅发泄行为...
后悔冇买果只表俾父亲..后悔小学5年级身高已经米六嘅我仲要老豆背上楼...后悔羡慕过人地老豆..后悔睇吾起我父亲...后悔我心中有过甘多嘅理所当然...
好怀念..怀念小时候蜷缩系父亲怀里嘅温暖..怀念小时候坐系父亲后边帮父亲拔白发嘅日子....
点解..点解努力回忆同父亲嘅美好时光时会如此吃力..??
我究竟几时开始..忽视父亲..??
冇文化点?坏点?生命中注定我地系父子...生为其子,死为其子..
好想..好想即刻打个电话俾父亲.讲声对不起..讲声我爱你...讲声多谢你...
之前同人讲起究竟读书嘅动力从边度来?我一直以为只要有个女朋友咩都解决晒..
有个F同我讲其实屋企人系最不竭最强大嘅动力来源...当时我不以为然...突然间.明白晒.
我觉得屋企人同我之间嘅隔阂好深...屋企人可以提供嘅只有物质支持..
我同屋企人几乎吾会讲自己嘅野..或者以后等我成咗家之后..会回顾呢D事情...虽然..吾知佢地等吾等到..
我想讲..我大个仔啦..我有我嘅人生目标..依家又有咗动力..我会成熟甘面对未来...
你地帮我准备嘅..我会好好珍惜...好好珍惜现在...好好珍惜你地嘅仍然健在..
好多灾难我地都挺咗过来....就算身上背负住一个定时炸弹...我一定会系佢爆炸之前,实现我嘅目标,兑现你嘅期望....
i wont be long....wait for me, please. 5月14日 50条婚前必看的经典问题
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